Holiday's

I'm at the point in life, where there is less of activities to do and more of me in body size.  This set of holiday's will be with just me and my husband!  We don't get out and about to visit much!  He works all week and doesn't feel like doing anything but resting on the weekends.... I understand that and don't push him, to do much!  
We stay pretty much to ourselves, and leave the drama to the people who enjoy it........less stress for us! So, I send out gift cards to a select few, and we just stay home and I cook a meal.........we eat, watch TV or do things on the computer..... exciting, huh?  Either way, we are not on the roads, where the traffic can cause all kinds of problems, we're not out in public, where all types of crimes are being committed.  We, are safely inside our world, with no outside interference!  Cozy, huh?

Need To Relax?

If I get down there, I'll need someone to help me get back up, but it does look relaxing...... :)  http://nitawatson44.sbcnewresolution.com

Put It On FB

You put a picture of the ring on Facebook and many of your "friends" wished you well!  You still didn't get a peep out of your "sister" or her sister in law!  Go figure!  She expects you to tell her personally and make her the first to know.  Well, it's too late for that one! 

 My oldest daughter was first in the family to know.  So, get over it!

The Ring

Well, now your in trouble.  You kept on at him until he called your bluff and put the "ring" in layaway.  Friday, was the day he paid it out of layaway, and the next day you went and had it sized to fit your finger.  On Sunday, he got on his knees and asked you to marry him?  Oh my!

My Health

Just when things were going well, I up and did a stupid thing and now my health is questionable because of it.  I took 2 sinus pills last week when I had a head full of sinus, trying to get some relief.  Well, I almost got the final relief, when my blood pressure shot up to 179/90 and a blood vessel burst in my right eye.  It looks horrible and I'm real shaky and feel my pulse being rapid very often.  It's scary and I'm even worried about having any private times with my man?  That's even scarier since it makes your blood pressure elevate, while having sex.  Damn, this just isn't right and I worry that it will be a permanent problem.  I just can't win, no matter how hard I try!

Alone

I stayed home again last night, when many were out on the town having fun and meeting someone.  It's one of those days when I felt I had been out one too many nights, only to come home alone, anyway.  Therefore I made my day count by going to different stores and buying things I wanted, whether I needed them or not.  I spent time browsing through different items, hoping to find something I really needed.  Nevertheless, it didn't happen, and once again after all my browsing, I came home with a bunch of bags, and settled in for the evening, alone.
The "Super Bowl" game, and I am debating whether to go to a club and enjoy the people, food and drinks?  I don't wish to stay out very long, because the danger of finding someone on the road, who can't handle his drinks and driving.  I will try to make it an early evening and finish the game at home. Alone!

Christmas

Looks as though I will be alone this year on Christmas Day..at least part of it anyway.........this is par for the course, since I have isolated myself from most people who are users.  Users tend to ask your for this and that without ever caring whether or not they are over extending you kindness or services.  I have five children who have lives of their own and are spending Christmas with their friends and families.  I just don't happen to be included in their festivities.  My Mom, is in the hospital and that has changed plans, with my sister to the point of not having anything, so to speak.  She's placing all her efforts around Mom, and my step dad since they are so old, it may be their last Christmas.  This I understand, but loosing the rest of the holiday just doesn't fit the scenario.  So, since I had planned to spend Christmas with her, I'm left to a limited amount of the day to enjoy.  I suppose, that this is what I should have expected, since I no longer have a spouse in my life and can't rely on others for my happiness.  I can't give the extra efforts, when I don't feel them, and I don't consider making myself go out of my way, something that makes me happy.  I can be alone and not have to put up with what others expect of me, even if it pisses them off at me.  They are doing what they want ........anyway.  Why shouldn't I?

Each One

I was sitting around several people the other evening, and found we all had the same thing in common.  We were in that bar, drinking in order to be out of the four walls, where we found so much loneliness.  Here were several people, who were all lonely and no interest in the people they were talking to, except the sound of someone's voice, and conversation.  Just a few conversations, about different subjects brought us back to the same subject of being alone, and tired of the empty place we lived.  I realized that I wasn't the only person, in this world that had found the loneliness too hard to bare constantly.

Friends?

How can you call yourself a friend, when all you do is want to take advantage of me and our relationship?