Why?

It's a beautiful sunny day where I live.  The wind is blowing softly and making the trees ripple, with it's gentle nudge.  I find that even though things are good in this aspect, I still have many things wrong.  Life takes it's toll on happiness, with the daily influences of negative attitudes.  I often find myself alone with people around me.  It's not funny to want to love and be loved, yet having to  hold back because of crap that's been thrown my way.  Eating crow, isn't in my idea's of being happy.  Why do they expect you to live like this when, happiness could be so much sweeter, if they'd try as hard to be happy as they do to be mean?  I just can't accept people enjoying being miserable, only to make others miserable along with them?

Is It?

It comes to the time when you know the other person is never going to change.  You seek some sort of peace in knowing that things aren't as bad as the relationships, you've had before.  Yet, you know this person is dragging you down and keeping you there.  You ask yourself how, this could be happening, when you are so damned strong?  You know that you can make it on your own, without this person, yet here you are.  Caught up in a relationship and not wanting to be alone. Sometimes, things are good, but most of the time, it's just a hell here on earth being with this person.  
The good in this person, does not out weigh the bad.......yet, they don't hit on me, run around on me.....so what am I to do?  

Happiness

Isn't this the way it's supposed to be.............often?

Once

Once these two people had a relationship, that was going somewhere.  They thought that things could go on forever.  This picture is one of several taken that day as their engagement pic's, for that time.  About two months later, it was history as were the pictures' story.  I was sad about it at the time, but today I have a clearer picture of what was happening during these times.  Just too bad that there's not always a "silver lining" to most stories.

Today

It's been a work in progress, for us and we have tried to get it going always in the right direction.  Maybe, just maybe we are getting it right?  There's no set way or pattern to make for a good relationship with your spouse.  You just play it by ear, hope for the best and do your damnest to make it work.  If you find that your love is good, with all the efforts, then you may have something worth holding on to.  
Complete trust in each other is one of the best things to have in a relationship.  This is a subject which is very important to all relationships.  When you have it, then the other subjects can fall into place around it.  I hope we will stay in the place we are and never loose the good we've built in the last year.

My Health

Just when things were going well, I up and did a stupid thing and now my health is questionable because of it.  I took 2 sinus pills last week when I had a head full of sinus, trying to get some relief.  Well, I almost got the final relief, when my blood pressure shot up to 179/90 and a blood vessel burst in my right eye.  It looks horrible and I'm real shaky and feel my pulse being rapid very often.  It's scary and I'm even worried about having any private times with my man?  That's even scarier since it makes your blood pressure elevate, while having sex.  Damn, this just isn't right and I worry that it will be a permanent problem.  I just can't win, no matter how hard I try!

Jimmy Dean

For those of you who like country music, this is a good one.