Love?

This is a very true song..........

Feelings

I've been in this relationship exactly one year as of the 10th of this month.  It's so many ups and downs that it keeps me on edge every minute we're together.  I want to have a laid back type of relationship, but I know that with this one, it won't ever be that way.  He will always have something going to keep me hoping around.  I feel worn out sometimes, and just wish he would get off his high horse and let me have some peace.  I love him and at times I hate him.  WTF?

Boring!

It's been a boring few days, with the recent loss of privileges placed upon me.  I must endure for the next two months a life of  being alone, except for a few visits from my sister to go grocery shopping and out to lunch. The rest of the time, I'm stuck here at home with my trusty computer, cat and the daily existence.  Life has a way of getting away from you when you least expect it.  Often it is minimal with it's taunts, but at other times, it can get down right nasty.  I suppose I can fall back on my son's comment when he heard my demise.  "It could have been worse".  You know he's absolutely correct and so I will count my blessings, down my shoulder and plow through this ordeal.

Stupid Me

I went and read what he had to say..........I give up!  This person thinks that him telling me "not to give up that there's someone out there for me" is a good thing.  Actually, the way he's coming across is that he's trying to make contact, keep his foot in the door and let me know he's still interested.  Fuck him.

SOSDD

Yesterday was a day of remorse.  I just can't seem to get it right no matter how I try.  These damn men, think I must be hard up for needing them.  This is so far from reality and they are esteeming themselves too high.  I don't need them........I would love to have someone.......but if it's going to be drama, trauma, abuse and crap then to hell with it.  I don't need being manipulated and talked to like I'm a child.  I well over the age of 21 and can take care of myself, thank you.
Damn, just when you think you've gotten rid of someone, they show up again.  Now, I got to go handle the situation that has arisen.  Will get back with you later about this one.

Not Again

You'd think I'd learn after all these years, about men.  Two topics are always on their minds...........sex, and food.  If he's not horny, then he's hungry.  Damn it, why in the hell don't they give me a chance.  Get to know me first before they want to jump in the sack with me?  Hell, I want to know what and who I'm laying down with.  He could be a serial rapists....a thief, a criminal on the loose...........I need to know that this person is above board, which is hard to connect with these days.  If I were young as I once was, then I might be stupid enough to jump in head first, without thinking.  Today, being mature gives me restraint when it comes to getting in the bed with a person, I just met.  It's only good sense to protect yourself, every way possible.  Damn these idiots that think I'm old and prudish. 

I'm Sorry

Yeah, it's been awhile since I posted on here, but it's only because I've had to put up with crap that was always in the way.  As a matter of fact, all of my blogs have suffered because of one thing or another that has developed in my life.  I've been lonely and always trying to stay away from thinking about it.  Yet, there are times, I should be on here writing what I feel.  I think I want a relationship and then I start thinking about the pitfalls that come with one.  It's not long before I've talked myself out of it and am glad to be without someone in my life.  Guess I've just gotten old and set in my ways.  Lonely can wait on solitude and peace.