Feelings

I've been in this relationship exactly one year as of the 10th of this month.  It's so many ups and downs that it keeps me on edge every minute we're together.  I want to have a laid back type of relationship, but I know that with this one, it won't ever be that way.  He will always have something going to keep me hoping around.  I feel worn out sometimes, and just wish he would get off his high horse and let me have some peace.  I love him and at times I hate him.  WTF?